It should be scary how numb I feel.

It should be scary how numb I feel. How alone…in the cliche, ‘a room full of people’. The lying and pretending we have the perfect relationship is taking its toll. The destruction, the madness, the emptiness…it’s become my new normal. He doesn’t even see it. Doesn’t see me withdrawing, doesn’t hear my mind wandering, doesn’t feel my love turning into resentment.